Bummer!

I had no better title then that sorry. So it has been a very bummer weekend. WE spent Most of Saturday in the ER waiting to hear something we already knew. WE got there at about 9:30am and were in our own room by 10:15. Unfortunately we were next to a kid that was in their for being very very drunk and he was very vocal and not very nice. The nurse didn't take any crap from him and was very tough. We were laughing most of the time. well after blood tests, an exam, and sonogram they told us that they could not find a heart beat and that I was having a miscarriage. This did not come as a shock to us because I had been having signs of that for a few days (which is why we went in the first place). I had cried most of my tears in the days before so I was ready. I don't understand why these things happen but they do and they did. I am very glad that I have learned a long time ago that I am NOT in charge but I am glad I know who is. I really have felt the spirit comforting me and reassuring me that everything will be ok. On Friday when I was pretty sure what was going on I was just sooo mad. I kept thinking "it's not supposed to be this hard" I still think that but now I know that Its not up to me anyway and maybe there are things I need to learn so maybe it is supposed to be hard.

Anyway I am just rambling but I just needed to put some of my feelings down in writing. I also wanted to say thank you to the good friends and Family that I have around me to help me and support me in the good and bad times. You guys are the best!!!!!

Today I am grateful for:

My wonderful husband
My cute little boy
my health
my home
my faith in the Lord and in His plan for me and my family.

Potty Training Time!!!!

Ok so On Wednesday I started the official Potty training. It has been three days and so far is going pretty good. So many people said that it was sooo hard and yes it is but I guess I expected it to be a lot harder and so it hasn't been to bad. ( kinds like the glucose test when you are pregnant) anyway he is doing really well and doesn't want to put his pulls up on at night even cuz he likes his big boy underwear. He only had two accidents on Thursday and so far today (granted its only 10am) no accidents today. As you can see in the picture I covered the couches with towels and the floor with a blanket. Yes there is a lot of Orange in this picture. Tolson has decided that he likes to pick out his own clothes so i let him and I guess at least I can be glad they are in the same color scheme. oh well so there is the latest update on Tolson and the potty training. I hope that it keeps going well and that I will soon have a fully potty trained little boy. Wish me luck!!!!

Cooking club ( for lack of a better title)

Ok so a few weeks ago I got together with some friends and we learned how to make Gnocchi (I think that's how you spell it) It was soooo fun. Allison taught us how to do it and then we all tried it. I of course am not in any of the pictures (tee hee) and I am sorry girls that they are so blurry. I have to tell you though I went to the Dr later that day and was weighed and was like 6 lbs heavier then I normally am and yes I blame the yummy food. Here are some fun pictures of the day.

Jessica showing off her crazy mad skills in the kitchen.

Emily cutting the noodles the whole time saying "Is this right, are you sure, really is this right it seems like it should be harder."


Amber - see if you can make it in my mouth!!!!!


I think Emily was the winner for the messiest hands. We had a lot of fun hanging out and learning a new dish. Thanks Allison for the new skills and the yummy food. I still have to try this on my own so Jason can have some and I can see if I can really do it.

COOKIES!!!!!!

Ok so I have been wanting to make these cookies for several weeks but have never gotten to it. They are the Land-O-Lakes chewy chocolate chip cookies, and can I just say YUMMY! so I decided to share this great recipe with you all. I know you are thinking they are just chocolate chip cookies but they have a lot more butter and sugar in them then most and they are chewy and yummy! So here you go!

CHEWY JUMBO CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE

4 1/4 cups flour

1 tsp baking powder

1 tsp baking soda

1/2 tsp salt

1 1/2 cups real butter, softened

1 1/4 cups sugar

1 1/4 cups packed brown sugar

2 eggs

1 Tbs vanilla

1 12 oz package of chocolate chips (2 cups)

Preheat oven to 375. Combine flour, baking powder, soda, and salt in a bowl. Set aside, Combine butter and sugars and beat at medium, scraping sides, until creamy. Add eggs and vanilla. Continue beating, scrapping bowl, until well mixed. Gradually add flour at a low speed until well mixed. Stir in chips. Drop by the 1/4 cupfuls, 2 inches apart onto ungreased cookie sheet. Bake 10-14 min. Let stand on the sheet for 2 min then put them on a cooling rack. mmmmmmmm!!! My cousin that gave this recipe to me swears by parchment paper and says it makes all the difference but I have never tried it. Enjoy!!!

30 and thriving!

OK so this last Friday I turned 30!!! I kept thinking it was going to be a big deal and that I would feel different cuz you know its 30. But I didn't really! Last weekend Jason threw me a surprise birthday party. It was so fun. I loved seeing friends and family and just hanging out. We had yummy food and played Rock Band. Jason had borrowed a projector and set it up so it was huge on the wall. Everyone brought a yummy appetizer and Jason made a cake. Yes Jason made it. He snuck to his moms house and made a German chocolate cake for my birthday. I love him so much and that he pulled it all off. My sister and her husband came into town from Safford to be there and my brother drove over from the other side of town to be there for me!!!! I have an awesome Family and incredible friends. We stayed up until 12 playing and talking and eating. It was so fun. THEN this weekend Jason and I were able to go "out" of town to a resort in Rancho Vistoso. My parents took Tolson and we spent the day shopping, watching a Movie (Harry Potter - and yes I did like it) went to a yummy Italian restaurant, sat in the hot tub and just enjoyed the day together. It was so fun and so relaxing to just be us and just spend time together. So I had a great birthday!!! It is weird to think that I am 30 but I don't feel old and I am so excited for all the fun adventures ahead of me in my life. Thanks everyone for all the birthday wishes and for being part of my wonderful life!!!

p.s. sorry I don't have any pictures! It was a surprise party!!!

Life in general!

why do I always put a exclamation mark after my title? I don't know but that's just who I am. I have been thinking a lot lately about life. I will be 30 this month and we are still in limbo of what changes may be coming and I don't know, just thinking a lot about life. Its funny how things don't work out how you plan but in the end they are better. I never thought that at 30 I would only have one kid (well technically I have two) but its just weird. I also didn't think that my husband and I would be at the beginning of a career change and possibly be moving. I did think that we would be out of Tucson by now though. We always planed 5 years or less, its been more then that since we got married but still we are close.

I just really am SO blessed. I have such great family close by, I have AMAZING friends that I have so much fun with and learn so much from and I am so in love with my husband and son. I always thought my kids would be about 2 years apart but it has been really nice only having Tolson at home because I can do fun things with him and I get to read to him everyday before nap and bed time. I think as you have more kids it makes it harder to do all those little things that take your extra time. I think it will be really fun to have him be the big brother and be big enough to help out and play with a younger sibling (no I am not announcing anything). I do really hope that we are blessed with more kids but I am glad for how great things have been.

I am just really grateful for all the wonderful things in my life.

Wonderful husband, Cutest funnest son ever, Being a mom

Nice, comfortable home, Cars that work and are paid for

Being able to cook and enjoying it, Green grass in the back yard, Rain in the summer

Great Friends, Having sisters, The church

Jason having a job, Having a healthy strong body

Ice Cream, Flowers, Chocolate

Anyway I am just thinking about all the blessings I have and I know that there is a plan for me and for my little family. I can't imagine going through this life without the Gospel and without the Savior by my side. Sometimes it is fun to look back on life and think about all the fun you had all the blessings and all the stupid mistakes you made. As long as we learn from them then it is all worth it! If we didn't learn anything we weren't looking hard enough!!!

I just wanted to take a few minutes to write about the joys I have in my life!!! I hope that you all can find your joys and hang on tight!!!!!!

Tolson's Birthday!

Friday was Tolson's 3rd Birthday and we had a great day!!!! In the morning he helped me make the cupcakes for the party. He is such a big helper and loves the part where he can lick the beater! (don't we all) This was the before picture, I never got an after one but he was way more covered in chocolate!

We tried to make the cupcakes into car wheels! If you use your imagination you can see it. (kind of squint your eyes and picture a car over them) They were not as cute as I hoped but he didn't care and they were really yummy! They were made with Jr Mints and man were they good!!!!!!

Then we went out to lunch with Aunt Michelle, Morgan and Nana and Grandpa. After Lunch we went to Toy's R Us and played on the toys. He was so cute running from car to car and bike to bike. Right before I took this picture Tolson was in the pink one and Morgan was in the black on. They switched on their own before I could take the picture.

Ok such a boy!!! He sits in the Barbi Corvette and then gets out and looks under the hood. He was messin with stuff and then shut it and got back in and tried to start it! I don't know where he learned that one!!! He is just a boy!!!!

So that evening we had some friends come over for a little party. We played at the park and tried to have cake and ice cream there too but it got too windy! I couldn't even get the candle lit so we sang anyway and pretended! He didn't care he just thought it was cool.

He then proceeded to lick all the icing off of two cupcakes, he didn't even try my yummy chocolaty mint cupcakes! Oh Well!!!

So after a HUGE wind storm started we headed over to our house. (lucky we live across the street) We played and opened presents. We did our families traditional "Heavy Heavy Hang Over" song and bopped him on the head with the presents. He loved it and thought it was soo fun to have his friends there.

Even the adults got into the action!

It was soo fun to have his friends over to play with him and enjoy his birthday! We are so lucky that his friends parents are our friends too so we had fun hanging out and visiting! We are soo blessed to be here and have such a great group of people around us. Thanks for coming and helping celebrate Tolson's 3rd Birthday!!!!

All night long and the next day all he could talk about was seeing his friends again!!!!!