Bummer!

I had no better title then that sorry. So it has been a very bummer weekend. WE spent Most of Saturday in the ER waiting to hear something we already knew. WE got there at about 9:30am and were in our own room by 10:15. Unfortunately we were next to a kid that was in their for being very very drunk and he was very vocal and not very nice. The nurse didn't take any crap from him and was very tough. We were laughing most of the time. well after blood tests, an exam, and sonogram they told us that they could not find a heart beat and that I was having a miscarriage. This did not come as a shock to us because I had been having signs of that for a few days (which is why we went in the first place). I had cried most of my tears in the days before so I was ready. I don't understand why these things happen but they do and they did. I am very glad that I have learned a long time ago that I am NOT in charge but I am glad I know who is. I really have felt the spirit comforting me and reassuring me that everything will be ok. On Friday when I was pretty sure what was going on I was just sooo mad. I kept thinking "it's not supposed to be this hard" I still think that but now I know that Its not up to me anyway and maybe there are things I need to learn so maybe it is supposed to be hard.

Anyway I am just rambling but I just needed to put some of my feelings down in writing. I also wanted to say thank you to the good friends and Family that I have around me to help me and support me in the good and bad times. You guys are the best!!!!!

Today I am grateful for:

My wonderful husband
My cute little boy
my health
my home
my faith in the Lord and in His plan for me and my family.